Have you ever felt like you are sleepwalking through your life? I have. Our bodies wake up every day and make breakfast, get dressed, get our kids to school, go to work, pay bills, go to church, hang out with friends, and lay awake at night, wondering why the very mind that couldn’t focus during the day now can’t seem to turn off.
Waking up is bitter sweet. We look around at our house, our relationships, our job, and our life and wonder “Who on earth made this mess?!” Oh…. I did.
The shame and guilt can almost be enough to make us turn right back around and retreat into the swirling fog. Keep your eyes open as long as you can stand it, dear one. Trust that there are a whole host of angels standing guard around you, patiently waiting for you to sweep the cobwebs from your eyes and gather your bearings.
As you look around, it can feel overwhelming! There’s so much to do, so much that wasn’t done, too many things that are overdue, and who on earth even knows where to start?! Start with you. Take a deep breath… and then just keep taking them. Feel absolutely free to just stand still in one spot for as long as you need to feel stronger. Soon, that little flame of strength will turn to hope. And that hope will turn to determination, and that determination… well, sweet girl… that determination can turn into the best, most wholehearted life you have ever dreamed of.
It can. It will. Just start today by gently looking at your childlike soul, as our Father in heaven would. Today, you might need to sleep. But tomorrow… oh, tomorrow… you may open your eyes and smile at the mountain.